Fuck my brain

So, usually I don't have dreams at night. By choice. I've said I'm a cannabis user cause of a few reasons. One for "medical" if you wanna call it that. It helps my back relax and realign after being tense all day and it helps me sleep cause I have an...

Gettin the "Low's" again....

Started talking to someone again....only to get stood up. That blows. Thought my self confidence was on point but these last couple days I've just felt like crap. Real low. Real depressed. Well, not REAL depressed, but for me it's slightly depressing....

Having a "Low" Day

Idk. Maybe it's cause I'm a little tired but I've just felt bleh all day. I started driving for Lyft yesterday so maybe just because I've add a new thing to my day that's why I'm tired. It's days like this that suck that I'm single again. I really...

My Will Over my Impulses

Someone close to me pointed out a flaw that most men have and one I had forgotten about and it made me think about it a lot more. To be the change. I'm a little tired of how sexualized we as a society have become. Everything is about sex....

Trying with constant effort gets results

So yesterday, I think, I shared about how I have a hard time dealing with strong sexual urges. Well, I think I've figured out how to maintain the guiltless life for myself. Stay busy! As long as I'm not sitting doing something brainless (like binge...

Trying to Overcome Obstacles

Extremely difficult! At first I titled this "Overcoming Obstacles," but then I realized I haven't overcome anything. I'm still trying my hardest to beat this. As humiliating as it is, I can't stand that side of me. I want it to be out of my head so I...

Day 4

So still haven't really seen too much of any improvement with this nootropic. I feel awake a little more so that may be a plus. Cool thing though, I'm currently in the middle of getting my left sleeve done (tattoo sleeve). I just had my fifth session...

Day 1

I decided I'm going to follow myself and pay attention to any changes I may have trying Lumonol nootropics for the next 30 days.    What it is: Lumonol is a brain enhancing product. It claims to help with memory, attention, alertness and many...

How my stupid feelings work

Well I've figured out that my brain is literally split in two pieces. Half of me is logical and the other half is emotional. I hate how these two sides collide! For example.... I broke up with my most recent ex last June due to finding her texting...

going through the same shit

I want to start by saying I'm a very passive person. I don't believe getting upset or being angry will get you anywhere if there is an issue. You just have to breathe and deal with it in the best manner possible. With that being said... I'm about to...

"Deciding to Leave" Results

Well, I spoke up about my issues with my father aka my boss. He understood all of my problems and was very helpful with what was going on. I do have a few other issues going on and all of them just overwhelmed me. He also informed me, which I didn't...

Deciding to Leave

I don't know if it's just because it's slow at work and employees/customers are bugging me lately, but I think I've decided to leave. I'm tired of, for one, all the bullshit drama at my work. Which, oddly, comes from only the women that work here. I'm...

So easy

Why is it so easy to fall back into the same patterns you've pulled yourself out of? You'd think since you taught yourself once that it wasn't good for you that you'd be smart enough to not do it again. I guess not for all. At least me. The reason I...

What I'm going to do now!

So, I'm back in the game. Thought I found someone I could date, but turned out it wasn't right for me. I'm honestly just glad I was able to see that and end it. Usually I would just stick around for the sex. Especially if it was great sex! My last...

Definitely Over, but Not Done

It's for sure. D and I are not going to work. I saw her last night for a movie date. We went and saw that movie "The Night Before" with Seth Rogen. First of all, FUCKIN HILARIOUS! Great movie! Then again though, I like stupid stoner shit movies like...

Possibly going to be done

I don't think using this blog site is going to work for me. I think I'm going to start using a different way to let out how I feel. I think I'm just going to be an open book and not worry about what my close friends and family say about it. Why should...

Meh.

I don't know why but my day today is just sucking. Everything is irritating me beyond belief. I don't know what my problem is but I just wanna punch a wall. It seems that all of my emotions are coming out. I feel sad, angry, irritable etc. I wish I...

Well Shucks...

Well, there's definitley a reason I date for a while before getting into a relationship. Unfortunately, it doesn't look like D and myself are going to work out. I know, sounds sad right. That's how I felt at first. Well, that and like an idiot. I had...