I'm sorry. I'm sorry for being ignorant. I'm sorry for not letting you in to help. I know I have issues. I know what I should do but it's hard and idk if I can do it alone. I know I don't deserve your forgiveness. I wish I could be the man/friend you deserve. Even though we don't really know each other, you have been a good friend and have stuck by since the beginning. I'm sorry for being a disappearing asshole. I wish I wasn't such a pussy. I know what I need to do. It's just very hard.... but what's worse is because of my actions, I know I don't deserve a friend like you. I'm a liar, I'm selfish and I'm scared. I know you probably don't ever want to talk to me again, but I just want you to know that I'm sorry and you were right...M.M.