Deciding to Leave

I don't know if it's just because it's slow at work and employees/customers are bugging me lately, but I think I've decided to leave. I'm tired of, for one, all the bullshit drama at my work. Which, oddly, comes from only the women that work here. I'm tired of my aunt complaining all the time about stupid shit. It's like she just loves to complain. I'm tired of the other gal that works here too. Her bullshit life with her drug addict lifestyle. I know I can't say much since I smoke and all, but at least I keep my shit together. I pay all my bills on time. I'm at work 30 mins earlier than I'm supposed to be, she's ALWAYS LATE, and I'm not exagerating. Maybe I'm just not a good manager, but I don't want to do it anymore. I'm sick and tired of all the bullshit that comes with this. It's not worth it. I want to be able to say that I've never worked a day in my life because I love what I do. I have tried convincing myself for the past year that I love doing what I currently do, but the truth is I like making my dad proud and happy. I like being the son that didn't screw things up or make my parents stress. I'm the "good one" and I've always been that way. I'm done with it though. I feel like I've lived my life for everyone but myself. I'm tired of holding back who I really am. I hate that I feel like I need to keep my smoking a secret. I hate that I cant pursue the things I want to because of this place. I want to get out of here. I'm done being the golden child in my family. I want to be my own person. Doing what I want to do. But how? How do I tell the one person who's given me everything that I want out? I can't do this anymore....

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Comments (4)

  1. thrivehive09

    good luck with quitting if thats what you want to do…. but quit smoking; trust me… ive been smoking for 10 yrs now n i wish id stop.

    December 19, 2015
    1. needingachange

      Not smoking cigs. I smoke cannabis. lol and as of right now I don’t want to quit that.

      December 19, 2015
  2. wirelessguru1

    Well, if you’re “needing a change” then you got to leave!

    December 19, 2015
  3. shortness

    I feel the same exact way but its the opposite I need a job lol and im sorry your going threw what ever it is your going threw.

    December 28, 2015